i can’t stop crying lately.
i don’t even feel them coming. it’s just like im sad and then they’re there. or the other way around sometimes. I’m crying before i even realize what im sad about.
i sat down in the bathtub and thought of every single thing that has made me as unhappy as i am. i couldn’t even finish the list.
why do bad things happen?
who was the person who the first bad thing happened to, and what did they do to invent the “bad thing”?

it’s okay cause it’ll be done soon.
it’s gonna be over soon, and ill feel the happiness ive waited so fucking long to feel. pretty soon everyone and everything that has ever hurt me is gonna be millions of miles below me, and ill be soaring in all my happiness.
soon ill be free.